pouring out to you.

Before I started my blog I didn't know what it was all about I thought maybe if I post things that I was doing and how I lived my life it would be a great outlet for me in a positive way. I sat and tried to plan every post, which none of them came out how I pictured. But one thing I know for sure this blog has become sort of an online diary for me. I'm able to share my outlook on life, writing and journaling has become so important to me in my life. While I post on here i'm able to share things that goes on in my head. My main goal is to be able to help someone through my post, even if it's just one person.
I find myself getting lost in my own thoughts, I know that when i'm in a negative mind set I need to slow down my thoughts and remind myself that the problem is only big because i'm feeding it, therefore it is growing. Look, i'm not saying disregard it but I am saying this, take it for what it is if you can try to think of a solution do so but if you can't slow down and try to come up with one.
I am guilty of overthinking and giving myself anxiety with a lot in my life. If i feel like i'm not in control, i'm out of control and I will try to grab hold of the situation which makes it worst. Relaxing my mind of these thoughts will have to be practice for me, because it is something I would like to change in my life.

I use to say i'm use to being disappointed, let down or hurt by someone I fell in love with. All of which I thought was negative, as time passed I've come to realize that it was all a blessing in disguised. Every hardship that I couldn't control had become my pain, struggling to live with it because I felt like there was nothing I can do. I learned that without those pain in my life I wouldn't be where I am today. Yeah life can be better or completely different but I am truly thankful for my life. Those "pains" has taught me life is full I control every aspect of myself! I can live a bad life or a happy life so why choose bad? I feel like there is always something to be thankful for and everyday I wake up I will start my day telling myself that. I WILL choose to live happy and not bad.

it's your life you choose how you'd like to live it.